I do not have a pornography
addiction; that is my official
party line. At least it was
until I visited this site
that came highly recommended.
If you are a porno-phile like
myself, I challenge you also
to take this "test."
Dr. Douglas makes some very
insightful points. One was
the guilt factor associated
with porn, which is quite
true in my circumstance. Another
good point he brings up is
the tendency of the porn addict
(or any addict for that matter)
to substitute porn for intimacy.
However, I don't necessarily
think that it's such a bad
thing to view pornography
when you're bored, nor to
view pornography in order
to temporarily escape your
personal problems (and, no,
I don't think I'm wading in
a famous African river with
this one); as long as you
recognize the activity as
a brief interlude or respite
in the continuing saga that
is your life (like catching
a quick movie at the theater),
and as long as you don't put
your problems off indefinitely.
In my case, I partake of pornography
as I would any other pastime
such as baseball, picnicking,
or watching TV.
Valid though his points were,
I felt at times that his expansion
for a point was nonsensical.
For example, his 13th question
asks if there are other forces
compelling you to watch porn.
But to illustrate his point,
he asks the reader if he (the
reader) indeed aspires to
be a better individual but
is hampered in that endeavor
by pornography. What forces,
whether internal or external,
was the doctor alluding to?
Similarly, he demands whether
the reader has ever thrown
away an old pornography collection
only to replace the collection
with a new stash (question
9). Good questions. Then,
however, he kind of goes off
at a tangent and asks if the
test-taker has ever viewed
pornography or masturbated
while in an altered, substance-induced,
mental state. Huh?
At times, his points were
repetitive. The emotional
disconnect between the addict
and his loved ones was mentioned
more than twice.
Mind you, none of his points
individually are misspoken.
I just thought that oftentimes
he took a faulty step in the
path of his logic, and ultimately
in the course of the test.
So I took the test with the
same mindset I always have
when I'm, ahem, engaging in
porn: I can quit any time
I so choose. But a small part
of my psyche constantly thinks
that I just may be lying to
myself, and here's why.
There have been times when
I told myself I wouldn't look
at porn for a set period.
But, that would only make
me want to look at naked women
all the more (is that an addictive
trait? I asked myself). It's
the times when I gave myself
free reign to look at all
the porn that I so desired,
that the porn didn't quite
hold the same level of excitement
for me. On the one hand, I
guess we, as humans, do often
want what we can't have or
that which is forbidden. Conversely,
it could be as Dr. Doug said:
you can become desensitized
to the average porn and may
need more extreme pornographic
material to attain the same
carnal elation.
Having completed the "test",
I've come to the conclusion
that I'm not a porn addict,
per se. And yes, I did weigh
several factors such as 1)
my increased desire for porn
when it wasn't readily available;
2) my tendency to view smut
when I had nothing better
to do; and 3) a sometimes
pervading sense of guilt after
a long viewing "session."
I realize that I just have
an over-blown sense of self
effacement due to my strong
Christian upbringing. And
just as some people look at
oil paintings and others gaze
at sunsets, I enjoy looking
at naked women; it's soothing.
The female body is truly the
most beautiful thing that
God put on this earth. If
that earns me the label of
a visual (pornography) addict,
so be it. I've been called
much worse.
On the other hand, maybe it's
about time I got off this
Egyptian cruise ship.
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